Original Fiction (Published Books/Short Stories)

The Broken - M/M Novella

Powerless - M/M Short Story



Fanfiction - Unlocked

Kirk/Spock

Everything They Never Had (R, ~3,250 words)

Emotions Outweigh Logic (NC-17, ~6,000 words)

Boldun (Affliction's Sons prequel, NC-17, ~5,500 words)

Affliction's Sons (R version, ~66,000 words)

Affliction's Sons (NC-17 version, ~70,000 words)

Variations of Vulcan Vaginas (PG-13, ~900 words)

Roadhead (NC-17, ~3,500 words)

Kicked From Inside (WIP, NC-17, ? words)

Uhura/Spock

Mother's Milk (NC-17, ~1,900 words)

McCoy/Chekov

My Heart: Shattered (PG-13, ~4,500 words)

Sulu/Chekov

You Will Go On A Long Journey (In Bed) (NC-17, ~38,000 words)



Fanfiction - Locked

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Kirk/Spock:

Real Life Love (pg-13, ~8,000 words)

Holographic Love (pg-13, ~5,800 words)

So, it's been a while since I posted. Things have been going pretty well in my life--I'm doing VERY well at my new job as a teacher and getting tons of compliments! (My vice principal told me she's never seen a first year teacher do this well and the behavior specialist, herself a veteran teacher of around 20 years, said in front of a whole group of people that I'm "as good a teacher as a 20-year veteran"!)

However, being good at my job means not having ANY time or brainpower for writing. I haven't even been reading fanfiction or my flist. Mostly I work from 7AM till 4 or 5PM (I'm allowed to go home at 2:30PM, but I never leave at that time, lol), come home, cook dinner, eat, watch some television, and crash. On the weekends, I sleep, do laundry, and spend time with the family.

But that's what the life of most first year teachers looks like. I've already started streamlining things in my life, so hopefully by by second year as a teacher I'll be able to have a social life! If not, at least I get the summers off. =P

Unfortunately, this holiday season has been difficult. My uncle, who I barely knew, died the Friday before Christmas, and my grandmother, who I wasn't particularly close to, died New Year's Day, both on my father's side. I'm sad, but not distraught. Mostly I feel horrible for my dad, who had to deal with both of these sudden deaths so close to each other.

Still, life must go on. I'm trying to look at the new year positively. I have a single resolution this year: lose weight. I'm terribly unhealthy at the moment, and feeling much older than my years, so I just want to get down to a healthier weight. My ultimate goal is to fit into my Senior Prom dress again. I felt fit and healthy in high school, though I was still technically overweight, and I'll be happy to get back to that point.

My hopes, though I wouldn't call them resolutions, are to finish THE BET, write some Young Adult books that have been begging to be written for 5 years now (seriously, I have the notes I took 5 years ago when I started to outline the plot!) and for which I already have the cover art (painted by a fabulously talented friend), and to just enjoy life. I'm done with school, settling into my dream career, and hoping to move into my own apartment next fall. I'm hoping 2013 will be a great year for me!

And I'm hoping it will be a great year for all of you too! Happy New Year everyone! ♥

So, in my attempts to finish THE BET by tomorrow, I did get quite a bit written/edited. The cover is finalized, the summary/cover copy is ready, and all I need to do is finish the book and edit. The editing won't take long, as I've spent quite a bit of time editing and re-editing the chapters I've already written. What is taking me so long is dealing with the big reveal.

I'm not used to the way men think. For whatever reason, I'm having a lot of trouble portraying Adam and Jason without making them come across as melodramatic. I've rewritten parts of the reveal about five times now, and I just can't get it right.

The truth is, I was never happy with THE BROKEN, my other novel, but I decided to go ahead and publish it and just move on. I don't want to do that with THE BET. I want to do a good job on it, so that I can be proud of it.

I'm going to keep working on THE BET. But I'm not going to put a timeline on it. It will be ready when it is good, and it won't be good if I rush.

In better news, part of the reason I haven't finished THE BET is that I haven't had time. I got a new job as a part-time teacher (yay!) and I've also been hired to edit a novel (yay!), so I'm thankfully stabilizing money-wise.

Now I just need to find a way to get my health more stable. I've been so tired lately, I have to sleep for 10+ hours just to feel normal. I have near constant headaches, and I'm often overcome with dizzy spells or nausea. Between the new job and feeling ill, my free time in which I can write is minimal. Sigh. Why does real life hate me? Maybe I'm just not supposed to finish this book! =P

Today I am still feeling vaguely ill.
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Also, I finally rented and watched the Hunger Games movie. I wasn't thrilled with any of the previews I saw, so I didn't expect much out of the movie.


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So, while the movie certainly didn't beat the book at all (even the visual effects like the fire-clothes were better in the book!), I did enjoy it and I'll probably rent the rest of the movies when they come out. =)

ETA: Suddenly, I'm extremely nauseous. Gonna take some Dramamine, hope it helps... though I'll probably just end up falling asleep since it makes me drowsy. Arg. Stupid body.

ETA2: Nausea gone. Drowsiness and headache have taken it's place. Arg. Gonna try to write for another hour, then I'm giving up and going to bed.

Quick poll tonight. I feel like shit. I've been having dizzy/nausea spells on and off for about 3 months now. They only hang around for 2-3 days a month, but they suck. All I want to do is sleep... but I'm still working on The Bet. I really, really want to finish soon.

While dizzy, non-writing tasks are easier, so I started playing around with my book cover for The Bet. Check out the two versions below, then please take the poll! And I mean everyone! Even if you've never written a word to me, please, please, please fill out the poll. This is market research people, and I need to know what everyone in the market likes. =P



Poll #1864559 Covers?
Open to: All, detailed results viewable to: All, participants: 18

I like the dimensions (length x width) better for...

I like the fonts better on...

I like the color of the image better for...

Whenever I see someone advertising that they will format your ebook for you and post it on all the appropriate web venues, I always wonder why anyone would be willing to pay $100 or more for something they can easily do themselves. Then I format one of my own books for the various sites and remember how much of a pain in the ass it is.

Especially when you spend 3 hours editing and formatting and making everything pretty... only to realize you've used the wrong draft of your story. *facepalm*

So, after yet another hour of editing and formatting, I can now announce that COMMUNICATION is complete. Done. Finished. Alleluia.

If you'd like, it's available for download as an epub, mobi, or pdf file on my website and on Smashwords. You can also read it entirely online at my website.

Currently it is "publishing" on Amazon.com. When it does finish publishing, it will be $0.99 at first, though I'll do my best to get it free on there too. It'll also take a few days for it to get shipped from Smashwords to iBooks and Barnes and Noble. I'll keep an eye on those sites and let you know when it goes up on there. =)

And now it's back to work on The Bet...

Well, I'm typing this on my new laptop. It's a Lenovo G570, and my old one was a Lenovo G550, so it handles much like my old one did. The tech specs are mostly the same, but this one has a different keyboard set up and a built-in card reader. I'm liking the card reader, but I'm not sure I'm going to like the keyboard. They moved all my favorite buttons!

Anyway, the files and programs I use are all set and ready, so I'm back on track with everything... minus $300. Sigh.

Oh well. It's time for me to get back to work on THE BET. Once I get that published I'll be rolling in the dough, right? =P

My laptop is dead. It still works, but the battery only lasts 15 minutes and the screen will not stay open unless you prop it just right. So, for all intents and purposes, it's dead. Due to a bad back, I use it primarily in bed while laying down and if I have to be in a specific position, well, that won't work.

I ran over to Office Depot this morning to get a new laptop because of this. I found a great one, normally $650, on sale for $450 + $100 mail in rebate for a final price of $350. Well, I thought the price was too good to be true, and guess what? It was. I brought it home, got it all pretty and loaded with my personal files, and then tried to load Microsoft Office... only to discover that the CD/DVD drive doesn't work.

After two hours of fiddling on my own and 1 hour fiddling with a support guy's help, I gave up. The thing is crap. I'm taking it back to the store tomorrow, where I'm going to have to fight to get my money back, since they only give "exchanges" on computers once they have been opened. Uh, no. I'm not exchanging one piece of crap for another. I like the brand, and I will buy their cheap version this time, as it's the same as my current computer, only the next version of the model. I love my computer and it's lasted me 2 years, which is my criteria for a good laptop.

So, I want that model, and I want the price difference back on my credit card... not as store credit. I'm afraid that getting that is going to be a battle though...

So, today I finished revisions on COMMUNICATION. Yay! I'm sending it off to someone now for proofreading, and then it will be ready for release on the internet as an ebook. No worries though, it'll be free. =D

However, as I was looking into formatting it for ebook, I decided to read over THE BROKEN, just to kind of get a feel for how I formatted that ebook. Instead of noticing the formatting, however, I soon found myself realizing that it has some grammar issues. It's certainly not horrible, but there are some sentences that could really be cleaned up.

This is a good thing, I suppose, because it means that I've grown as a writer over the past year. The fact that I can now recognize that some of my writing was a bit clumsy is fabulous! However, the fact that I released such clumsy writing is embarrassing. Once I finish THE BET and release it, I think I'll go back and edit THE BROKEN. I won't be changing any of the story, as I feel that once a story has been released, it's done and shouldn't be changed, but I will go through and clean up my grammar and double check for typos and such. =)

I have decided that all jobs suck. After ending my last job as head cashier at a family owned store, I began working as an online tutor. I thought I would enjoy it. I figured it would be something I'd be good at.

Well, IT SUCKS.


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ARG. This is really irritating me. I'm trying really hard to help these students, but I usually have to choose between giving them indepth help on one or two paragraphs or simply reading through their entire essay and making notes on all the errors and then sending it back. I don't have time to do both, and I hate that I have to tell the students, "Sorry, time's up, gotta go, come back soon!"

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